Did I mind giving it all up? not at all I may have been terrified and constantly reminding every one of how easily it could all go wrong but there was an actual life growing inside me! I would have given my life for it and it wasn't even as bis as a sesame seed yet.
Little did I know during the next 9 months how much I would have to give up and how totally different my life would be when Flynn arrived than I ever could have imagined.
when we found out I was pregnant we were living in a two bed rented house with old beams, quirky corners and a leak in the kitchen which caused mould and an infestation of slugs, we had reported the landlord to the environmental health shortly after moving in and he had done the bare minimum work, not long after finding out I was pregnant I also found out we were going to be evicted, we were given 4 weeks to find a new home, after lots of tears and upheaval we found a lovely bungalow not far away, we thought that things were looking up and got all settled in. Moving into a bungalow was a stroke of genius as I developed a condition called SPD which basically meant my hips were in almost constant pain and eventually by the end of my pregnancy I could barely walk and on rare days out i had to rely on a wheelchair or electric scooter.
Everything was great while i was pregnant, except my hips, I never got morning sickness and the worst symptom I got was heartburn towards the end. at 20 weeks it was confirmed I was having a boy and immediately he was Flynn, there was no big decision or discussion he just was!
At 8 months pregnant the unimaginable happened we were told that our landlord was selling our little bungalow and we would have to move, the date they gave us to be out by- 12/07/11 Flynn's due date- 13/07/11! They couldn't have planned it better and since they knew I was pregnant I couldn't even guilt trip them into letting us stay till he arrived, we looked round houses and flats but couldn't shake the worry that it would all just happen again until John's (husband) sister Sarah and her partner Nicola came to us and offered to share their house with us, the single most amazing offer I ever had! we sat down and discussed details and eventually a month before Flynn arrived we moved to Sheffield and started our new life.
I have to say it's the best thing we could have done, not least the money aspects (1/2 price bills yes please!!) but in the early days when I was struggling to move around, couldn't drive and felt isolated there was always someone in the house to cheer me up and if I wanted to be alone we have our own living rooms so can be alone too.
Two days before his due date I got into bed, felt a 'pop' and my water broke, 18 hours, out came Flynn, all pink, noisy and amazing! My birth story can wait for another day, its long and it all went wrong.
I went home the next day and thanks to an amazing support network the last almost 4 months have flown by, Flynn is thriving and I haven't once been Isolated and scared as I could have been if we were living alone and Flynn has the best relationship with his aunties I could possibly hope for.
Life is good and if you can make sense of my ramblings then I'd like to share it with you.
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